I turn 65 in an hour. I feel like staying up late and welcoming it in. I feel like sharing this. I feel like claiming what comes next. I feel excited.
I have reached a place in my life where I experience contentment. I have few regrets. I can see that my experiences, no matter how painful have served me and brought great healing. I have learned to forgive. I have learned to take responsibility as opposed to blaming others for my problems and dissatisfactions. I have learned to care less about what others think of me and this has led to profound freedom. I have learned to appreciate my way of being in the world and not apologize for myself. I have let myself take risks and experience many new things. I laugh a lot and that is such a gift. I have a personal connection to love. I have hope. I feel peaceful more and more. I can see the heart in people more often and look past the unkindnesses. I think I could keep this up for hours.
What next? What am I claiming and welcoming in?
More kindness to self and other
More sharing on a soul level
More sweetness (Seeing it in others and myself)
I have a few bucket list items. The big one is swimming with sea turtles. They just amaze me. I want to take more risks. That would be letting myself do things like publish my book, and do more acting, and publish my poems, and teach more. It would be only doing things I will enjoy and that bring me peace. No more “should” in anything.
I think I will like myself more and more which will help me like others more and more.
I will be gentler with you and me. I will walk softer.
Peace will be the mainstay of my life.
I like this.
It is less than an hour now until I turn 65. I wish I could hear my mom and dad claim their disbelief that they have a daughter who is 65. Well, I will claim it for them. I am the daughter and I can’t believe I am turning 65. I like it. I earned it. I am good with it.
Thank you to each and every person who has been a part of my life. You have enriched my experience and blessed me in countless ways. I am grateful to you all.
I am going to sit with my God now and rest as the illusion of a clock chimes in my 65th birthday!